Personal demons


Here’s the funny thing about personal demons. No matter how old they are, and no matter how much you think you’ve put them behind you, they always seem to rise again and again. I have been triggering a lot recently everything from depression, anxiety, to nightmares.  The bad part is, I do not know why.

 
I will not go into details about what happened, but it’s time I truly faced the past.  It’s these events drove me into drugs, and being on the receiving end of several emotionally, mentally, and verbally abusive relationships. 

 
I know there’s a stigma to admit this, but frankly I do not give a damn anymore. I am finally seeking therapy for what happened 20 years ago. I have been silently carrying these burdens to long.

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